怎么分都分不开，是缘分吗？

分分合合.....
一时吵吵闹闹，一时甜甜蜜蜜....

无论怎样吵，都离不开对方...
无论因为什么而吵架，都会舍不得离开对方....
无论对方有多过分，都狠不下心分开...


妈妈时常说，我们还小...
不懂什么叫爱情.... 我们这种只是友情，很深厚的友情~
可是我觉得我和他很久很久之前，曾经见过面....
原来我和他念同一间幼儿园....
而且时常骂对方~
我们在同一年转校....
他回去selayang的幼儿园，而我转去小叮当....
现在想起..... 觉得我和他挺有缘的....

小学读三育华小....
但是我读正校，他读分校....

而我们的缘分就在中学继续联系....
我第一眼见到他已经觉得很熟悉....
只是他和我好朋友在一起，所以我没有去接触他.....

过后再taekwondo相遇...
和他很谈得来....
一起练习很开心~

到中二,我们的缘分到了....
可是总是有很多问题发生在我们的身上~
经历了好多好多~
也放弃了很多东西~
都是为了维持我们的缘分~维持我们的关系~

直到中三.... 感情也稳定了....
但是因为对对方的了解，而产生了更多的争吵~
虽然日子过得不怎么开心，但是我们还是坚持这段感情，紧握着对方的手不放~
因为知道一旦放开了，就不能后悔~

经历了这么多~
还是分不开我们紧握着对方的手~
是缘分还是我们的坚持?

我们的未来又是怎样的呢?
还是我们不会有未来?

a days with my dear and dear friend~

今天很难忘....
原本以为我，培勇和思巧去会很无聊~
结果一切都在预料之外!!!! 好开心!

8。00 a.m. 在 Rawang KTM 集合~
过后在火车里面，思巧都看她的书.....
以为会闷到她~

过后到KL SENTRAL我们转车去SETIA JAYA后....
思巧开始发作了>.<  (cant stop talking, hahahaha)
不过都聊得很开心啦~ ^.^

到SETIA JAYA后~
我们就到一家 “废材茶餐室” 吃早餐~
难吃!!! 贵!!!
真后悔~

过后就步行到 sunway pyramid~
然后就往 lagoon 前进!!!!

过山车,海滩,急流,360度海盗船...... 还有很多很多~
玩得好开心哦!!!
思巧其实有点怕怕的，不过被我逼到非玩不可!!haha...
不过最后她也说很好玩，不怕^^

(其实我要她来也只是希望她开心, 看到他们都这么开心，我身体不舒服也陪他们来玩也值得^^)

玩完后~
oh my godness~~~~
好黑哦!!!!! 不是天空!!! 是我们的皮肤啊!!!!!!
嗨 ..... 又要花时间去美白咯 ><

过后我们去溜冰....
他们好可爱哦....
溜得好像小鸭子 ^^

培勇他第一次溜冰，一直扶着墙走....
他明明就溜到脚很痛，但是还是陪我.... 谢谢你哦~


一开始下冰场，看见的你们都是手震脚震的....  连走都不会走!
过了30min的练习后却可以不用扶着墙走了.... 真的很厉害^^

美好，开心的时间总是过得特别的快....
很快的就到6.00pm了~
我们离开sunway pyramid....
到附近的火锅buffer吃晚餐~

还不错吃~不会贵~
我也让思巧见识培勇的神嘴 ~ haha
连思巧都说厉害!!!!
当然, 这就是培勇宝贝的天赋嘛 ^^

吃完晚餐我们就回家咯~ 时间过得真是快!!!!
今天真的很棒~
有我最棒的朋友，有最疼我的宝贝~
真的很开心~
谢谢你们今天的陪伴~
谢谢你们给我这么好的回忆~

思巧: 谢谢你哦.... 今天你不是电灯泡... 有你在很开心^^ 有你在才不会无聊!!!!


宝贝: 很开心今天你能够陪我~ 今天的你很棒~ 我很开心~ 谢谢你 ^^ 谢谢你给我多一个美好的回忆!!

 在溜冰.....

haha......^^ damn tired.... go out rest first !!!

waiting for the train ....
haizz.....

红豆冰

今天,我没有找过你.....
因为我已经不再对你有希望~
　
刚才跟妈妈出去街上吃东西~
我坐在车里面,看着窗外.....
到处都是我们的回忆...突然眼泪就落下来了...
我赶紧把眼泪抹干,因为不希望妈妈见到这样的自己~
　
到了评男~弟弟突然说要吃摇摇冰~
我带着弟弟走到隔壁摇摇冰的摊前,让弟弟选~
弟弟豪不犹豫的说要玉米....
而我就要一杯红豆冰...
　
记得以前....我不懂摇摇冰是什么....
你带着我到这个摊子买给我吃....
你爱吃玉米的,而我就喜欢红豆....
两个人拿着一杯红豆加玉米在街上你一口我一口,开开心心的吃了起来....
　
今天自己一个人在熟悉的地方吃着熟悉的味道,却不会再有熟悉的背影出现在我身边...
在我回忆中的红豆冰是甜甜的...很好吃~
但是今天,我吃的每一口,都是苦的酸的......
　
我很努力在忘记你,我想过回没有眼泪的生活.....

我真的受伤了...

你不必解释你为什么说谎.....
我的心被你伤得好深...
我知道我很难搞,但是没有必要骗我~
你说你很了解我,所以你也一定知道我最讨厌被欺骗~
　
哭了两个小时~
什么都哭够了~
我不会再为你流一滴眼泪.....
　
我不会再给机会你.....
不会再让你伤害我....
你很利害,你赢了~
我被你玩弄了~
　
我知道我很笨!!!!很白痴!!!
被你骗了几天现在才懂~
你真的很利害~
　
我求你不要再玩我了...
我真的受伤了....
也不会再跟你复合......
　
你死心吧~
过你想要的生活~自由没有束缚~
　
放心~
我不会再打扰你~
我希望你会看到我写的东西~
　
[叮当_你为什么说谎]
这首歌我觉得是我们最后的回忆~
你去听听看吧~
　
再见~
你.....终于自由了~
不要再流泪~
要坚强~加油~
最后~我还有小小要求~
　
~请你忘记曾经有我~
这样你会比较好过~

today do some wrong things >< cheat my mom....

aiyo..... so ungrateful now....
cause cheat my mom just now....
after back home....
i done all the things at home...
like washing clothes, prepare the dinner and a lot...
haiz, damn tired now~
wish my mom can have nice mood and nothing when know the fact....

but anywhere...
today really unforgetable wad~
cause first time go out with my best ji mui lo><

hehe~ tomorrow my mom fetch me go to sungai wang...
haha, i wan many leng leng de dress and shirt !!!!
i also wan buy a nice dress for sue wan ^^
and buy a leng zai shirt to my darling ^^

...... no money.... how buy? oic~
haha! my mom lol!!! she will paid de ^^ hehe

today go gai gai with my dear friend

hehe... in truth, today i cheat my mom say wan go kepong to find new school but in fact i go to midvallay ><

wish my mom dunno this facts lal ^^
cause she will scold me as well as she can ><
scary.....

today go midvallay with her haha....
cause wan help sue wan buy her dress....
many dress we buy and choose....
a lot of patten and shape...
wan die >< but funny la ^^

10.30am we back and 11.30 we arrived KTM rawang .....
after that , we chit chat at MCD... haha....
and go to Parkson, Hari-hari.......
damn happy shopping with her, cause she talking in all the time.... u wont feel lonely de ^^

thanks ya, sue wan....
today really is a nice day ^^

sunway trip wanna delay...... to next friday....

yerr... nothing to say lo... cause all my friend not free at this friday....
so wanna change the date to next friday.....
i'm waiting ... waiting... and waiting.....

wish the times can go faster and faster....
and i wish all of my dear friends can join this trip...
cause i wanna you all can happy and give me the last memory with all of my friends....

i feel so sorry about my stupid leave....
hope u all dont care about it....
i really hope u all can continue ur life without me lar....
as i know, pui yong will feel so lonely and sad...
i dun tell u anything about i wanna change school and even i will leave from here..
sorry...
pls forgive and forget me i u know that fact....


bye dear....

sunway! i'm comming~~~

next friday wanna go sunway lol^^
damn happy now....
i hope i can have a nice day at there...
cause... maybe.... is my last time to meet with all my dear friends and him.....
wanna say: good bye, my dear friends....
please dun miss me and dun sad wad...
ok?
cause saya belum mati ma....
still can gathering de ma... right? ^^

i also wanna say thank to sue wan , she so care for me when i'm moody~
she change school with me, so sweet right?
she say she will company with me in all the time.....
aiyo, so touching ya dear....
thanks la....

i wanna be strong.....

tears is stoped...
hard is gone...
all the tired is disappear...
except your smile and your gentle....
it is hard to forget...
cause it is the recollect for me and u...even the last....

i cannot cruel to delete all the photo of you and us...
cause it is very precious....

i wanna say thx to you, cause your gentle is touch my heart...
your smile and your sweety is forcibly occupy my heart...
i love ur despotism, i like ur protect....
i also wanna say sorry for u~
i make many trouble to you in this year...
always control your life even your action...

sorry... i think i'm not the best choice for u...
u are the good guy even the best in this earth...
gentle, sweet, handsome, care, have good result in study and sport....
without you is my damage but is your lucky...
you are free from now..

i'm a lonely girl.....

how many times say i love u....
how many times say i miss u....
how many times say i wanna forever with u?

how about now?
so lonely.....

now, who can company me in the time without him?
ya, my friends.. i wanna say thank to them......
but him....

can i forget him?
i know i cant.....
he give me many memories in tis years....
so unforgetable....
so miss his smile and his voice....
maybe i really love him a lot....

hope the times can let me forget all the pass...
forget all of  him....

last night, cannot sleep...
i'm waiting... waiting for him...
if he can say sorry to me.. i will forgive him...
but.... he never do it..
maybe i think myself is too important for him...

what can i do now?
give up?
ya, this relationship is already gone.....
but i wanna say.... i love u dear...

after i change school, i wish u can happy and please forget all about me....
maybe you will more happy and free without me...
sorry about all of my wrong....
i dun wan see your tears ok?
u wanna be strong and dun always show that LC face....
i dun wan u been beat for who.... i dun wan~
i hope u can happiness...
i wont forget u, cause u are important for me even important than anythings....

good bye , my dear....

fuck off!!!!! leave alone from my life !!!!

(WITHOUT U I'M NOTHING)

all is fine.. sure i will cry..
but is ok.. i still got tears company and going my life~

i hate u in all the time~

pls dun annoy and add oil on me when i'm get mad....
if u really wanna play wit 3 yiu yip then u go away from my life!!!!
no need to give the show and play around me even in front of my eyes~
u know it will get hurt for me?

are u really a stupid?
u dunno how much hurt u giving to me....
i always control my tears....
cause u~ it is ur affected~

enough~
i wish this problem will never repeat~
please thinking before u wanna play wit them....
u can broke ur promised...
i dun care about it~
cause how many times u ravage the consent....
dun promise me like easy...

i wish we wont argue from now..
so boring to argue wit u....
just like a kid playing wad...

if without me u can life happy then now....
u can give up~
never mind...
i dun wan u feel hard...
dun wan u feel tat i always making trouble to u!!!!

maybe i not the best choice for u.....

一段恋情就好像一个杯子和热茶.....
刚开始，热茶被倒进杯子里....
杯子感觉好热烈.....刺激.....

茶慢慢的暖了下来....
杯子感觉好温暖好舒服.....

当茶慢慢的变冷了...
杯子好不舒服, 好辛苦.....

一个不小心，杯子被摔破了.....
冷却的茶化在杯子的碎片上....
可是茶永远都不会变热了...

可能我们的感情,就像冷却的茶....

明明很爱对方，很需要对方....
但是会恨下心的选择离开你....
因为我知道，你最需要的不应该是我....
我想你开开心心...
想你没有烦恼.... 没有顾虑....
我并没有装伟大...
我只是希望你活得更好更自在.....

好怀念我们的从前.....
你总是可爱的笑着....
不断的陪在我身边.... 呵护我疼爱我....
你给了我很多很多美好的回忆....
谢谢你....
我不会忘记你....
但请你忘记我，好好坚强的过下去....

猜不透
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猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过 

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透 

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花了两个小时却送不出去的礼物

我宁愿什么都不知道.....

上个星期,你说会selayan配眼镜......
我让你回去了~
晚上你说你四姑载你出去....
你说只有你们两个出....

弄了1个小时30分钟....
我没有吵你....
过后你说你回家吃饭咯，然后打了一通电话给我...
说:老婆，我到家了...
过后你就去吃了...

我没有质疑过你会骗我什么....
根本没有...

直到前几天....
你姑姑们把你们出去吃东西的照片upload了上facebook....
那时我真的傻眼了...
你们一家人出去配眼镜，出去吃韩国餐....
而我，什么都不知道...

我没有告诉你我知道的东西...
因为我不想跟你吵架...

今天,我又问你一个问题...
你有骗过我吗?
你很肯定的说没有~
那时候的心情好复杂... 好难过~
不想再去骂你,不再流泪~
我要坚强..... 坚强的活在被你欺骗的世界里~

wat stupid result i get!!!!

sc 27/40
bm 10/40
sej 30/60
geo 32/60

i really hard study and focus when exam.....
why the result still can stupid like tat?
is it i'm wrong? or i really brainless?
stupid result.....
i wish i can get 5 A at PMR....
but it is a dream now.....

i'm loser.... so cham....
now i know the result is important for me....
sorry mom, i'm ad do my best on it~
sorry dear, i'm ad show my best in this exam....

PMR..... scare about it~

PMR is comming .....
tomorro.....

what can i do now?
study? no.... i cant remember all of my learning now......
sleep? no.... cannot sleep at this moment...
cry? haizz... nothing to cry leh!
scare? aiyo~

hope i can get a good result at tis examination....
cheer up~
dear... u too.... dun dv many 压力 to urself....
just do ur best , tat is enough!
i trust u ! u can !

then.... dun always gv a lot of bad face to me...
dun get mad when i'm just do a litter bit wrong~
keep urself be serious ok?
i'm not ur 发泄品.....
i'm ur girlfriend.... please dun gv some sh face to me.....
wake up please..... just a exam ok...