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MY LIFE

you walk in and out from my life...
now.. you are dissappeared from my life...

although, i will miss you when saw something mamories with you before..
although, i will crying when i miss you..

anyway... i meet a nice guy..
he very nice.. very care on me... and very sek me too..
today is my first day talk with him...
he make me happy and laugh..
i think i will have a new life after this..

by the way, me and my friends was fine again...

i very trust god.. because it take something from me, and it will give back something to me..
i also donno what happen will going on after this..

maybe i will happiness , or maybe my heartbroken agains..

wish god will never joke me in this time...
thx god

昨晚...病倒了...

半夜1点...身体不懂怎么了...
可能有点弱吧...
不知道什么在折磨着我...
真的很辛苦...

不想吵醒堂姐她们，所以自己在客厅睡..

那时候，好想打给你...
因为习惯了有你的照顾...
拿起客厅的电话，按下了你的手机号码..但是还是放弃了...
毕竟，是自己先放弃你，放弃我们的爱情...

我宁可一个人痛苦，也不想再麻烦你...

辛苦了好久...
终于在5点睡着了...

身体很糟糕...
不知道是不是因为知道没有了你，我身体里面的计时炸弹又在叮咛我然后继续倒数了呢？

我每天都会为你祈祷...
希望你没有我，也会快乐，平安的过每一天..

醉...

醉是唯一不会想起你的方法....
醉是唯一不会流泪的方法...
醉是唯一会忘记心痛的方法...

每天都在喝酒...
是因为不想哭...
就算怎么想你，也不会回头....这是我对自己的承诺...

命运从来不会同情弱者！
我并不脆弱...
我的命运由我掌握！
而不是天，不是你...
我灌醉自己，并不是害怕想起你...
是害怕再流泪，留恋...

我和眼泪承诺过，不再哭...
但是真的很难很难...
所以，只好醉...
我拥有了一切，但是我失去了你...

怎样都好...我们在今天结束了...
祝你，生日快乐...

I really need a real friend to lisen my heart...

sometimes feel so boring...
sometimes feel so confuse..
sometimes feel so uncomfortable..

in fact, i miss that gang of my friends..
they all know my heart, i love them and like to by them side in all the time..

i use my happy to cover my bad mood..
so tired...
i hate it!

why i can't have a simple life..
a simplest school life..

i'm feel so alone..
i lack of care by him... lack of  love by him..
maybe he never see my exist until now...

anywhere ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... MY DEAR~

甜蜜是什么？

酸酸的？
苦苦的？
辣辣的？

到底甜蜜是什么呀？
我曾经有偿那种滋味..
真的很满足..
但是这种味道渐渐在我生命里消失了...
我不知道是怎样的味道了...

甜甜的滋味...
我真的忘了...

我寂寞就好..

牺牲并不伟大,而是愚蠢！

我就是那个愚蠢的人，永远都想自己扛起一切的痛...
无论爱情，还是友情...无论是对还是错...

对我来说，哭过就好了..
就算一个人，也没关系..

原来我不懂什么叫爱...
和他在一起快两年了，原来我从来没有遵守过我的承诺... sad..
原来我这一年来所流的眼泪，都是错了..我怪错了..
没有想到，错的都是我...
或许我真的变了...
越来越害怕孤单，害怕寂寞..
越来越依赖你，依赖你的陪伴...
越来越没有信心，害怕会失去你..
对你越来越凶，想让你知道我的存在...

金牛座就是这样，会想很多很多...
而且想的都是negative thinking..
我也没辙..
谁叫我是金牛座...

一个女生温柔不好吗？
为什么要这么野蛮霸道呢？
弄到勇勇疼爱你，是不是活该？
我一直在想...
但是我都找不到答案，
因为我也不知道我为什么会变成这样的女生..

可能我真的没有安全感吧...
太醒目的女生，是不好的事...
太笨的女生，更加不好..

女生难做啊！！！

i hate the feeling of pain..

have many problem appear in my life in the same time..
my family..
my friends..
my lover..

why..
why is me..
why i feel so hard now...

about my family,
it problem wont disappear.. because of my mom..
she is the trouble maker of my life in my family..

about my friendship,
in fact, i dont have a lot of friends in my new skul..
just only a gang of friends less then 20 ppl..
i'm a sunny's girl.. and always make my friends happy in all the time..
so, be my friends sure wont felt lonely..
but.. have a girl dislike me.. her answer is ... she jeolus on me..
becuz i pretty then her? no! she is pretty then e a lot..
in fact is because she felt that i take all of her friends... broke the friendship between she and her friends..
i'm feel so sorry about your negative thinking..
i really dun have that thinking wanna fight with you..
i'm a new students in this skul, i also need friends to cmpany me..
i also scare lonely.. i scare all by myself..

for my love..
i had nothing to say..
if you are my friends.. you must know my story about me and him..
should you give me a conclution ?

but anyway.. i will never fall down..
i hate the feeling of pain trough love!
becuz it will pain in the deep of my heart for a long time.......
maybe 1 years.. maybe 10 years... of maybe forever...
the pain of love is unforgetable for me in this whole life~

找到知心的朋友了...

以前我知心朋友是佩佩和思巧..
他们两个是我最好的朋友...
当我需要听众的时候，他们都很愿意..
每当我不快乐，哭泣..他们都愿意陪着我...

现在转校了，朋友一个一个的失去了联络..
我觉得好寂寞...

总是有话想说...
但是却找不到听众...
只好在厕所对着镜子里的自己倾诉..
对着镜子里的自己哭泣..
我觉得自己好丑陋...好孤独...

今天，我找到了知心朋友..
我有好多话想说...
我想哭出来...
非常谢谢她愿意当我的听众..
她和我有同样的遭遇..
同样的心情，同样的背景..

希望未来我和她会是好朋友...

Now i know the fact...

i see clearly about our relationship..
i see clearly the all of you...

we just only match by our look..
but other...
i know why we argue all the time..
becuz we are not the same..
we are come from different places.. different thinking..

what is 承诺？
this kind of things is just a beautiful lie..
what is forever?
this is just a times were wont finish on the earth..
what is happy?
i really dont know...

i just know.. what called lie...

i'm become mature trough Love..
all ppl must trough Love to make you "growth up" , dunt say never..
it just the person you will meet was early or late..

ps:
some things i know you know, is nothing
some things i know you dont know, then i better shut up my mouth
some things i dont know but you know, this called lie

Nothing feeling..

Even today have many couple sweet sweet in anywhere..
Even have many single's ppl lonely at the sides..

as a single/couple's me.. dont have any feeling in today..
dunno i'm the single or in relationship now...
haizz... so blurr..

maybe single is free than couple,
or maybe couple is happiness than single..

for my life..
it dose't have Valentine days..
because it is just a stupid day for give the present to the person that you like..
so noob...
maybe i'm joules have some girls have present but me... have nothing...
in fact, i really hope i can get the valentine day's present from him...
the other's present i dont care , even dont care their exist ~

God.. i'm begging you... give me happiness...
give me a real man is really can protect me as well...
help me change pui yong...
help me get away his mad...
help me change him become a 100% good husband~
please.. i'm begging you~

Happy Valentine day~

For me... valentine day is not my day...
in my memories, i remember that last year of valentine day..
me and him go celebrate together after school..

but now.. all changed..
all by myself..
i going my life by myself too..
who know my feeling now?

last night , he broke my heart agains..
but dont know, why i will give him one more chance..
i really dont know this chance was correct or wrong..
maybe i will hurt and hurt, cry and cry again..
or maybe he really will change himself to make me happy...
but i really want to try... even it is nothing to me...
what the end i will getting?

i give him a chance...
hope he really will change himself...
hope my action is correct..
hope me and him will argue agains..
hope me and him will happiness..

YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT

i'm a girl..
only a simple's girl...
very easy to make me happy..

but why,
why you dont know what i want?

i just want a simple life...
have ppl protect on me..

have ppl care about me..
have ppl need my exist..

i just want happy times..
want smile all the times..

i just wanna a guy love me...
i dint like tears..
i dint like cry...
i dint like ppl leave me alone..
i dint like ppl lie on me..

is't happiness just a dreams for me?
is't happy already leave me alone?
is't only tears can company by my sides on this times?

好怀念有你牵着我的手的时间...

miss all of you...
but i know it is end..
what can i do..?
just only can stay at sides company with my tears..
singing the song of us...
seeing the picture of you...
memories all of our couple life before...
it is sweet and warm..

why i feel so cold now?
why i feel that just only me stay on the Earth?

who can give me some help hands?
who can give me some air....
i really cant breathing...
why i still hard until now?

不知道几时开始，就只剩下我一个....
我的存在，有价值吗？有人在乎吗？
一个人在和眼泪搏斗...一个人在回忆里争扎...
有谁看得见，有谁感受得到我的感受...

忘记一个人好难..

一直以来，我都以为自己很坚强...
没有什么事情会难倒我...
包括忘记他..
从来没有为过一个人流眼泪...
从来没有被人伤害过...
他是第一个...
从来没有被人疼爱过...
从来没有被人关心过...
他是第一个...

要怎么说...
我很爱他，但却很恨他..
我很想他，但是更想忘记他...

很爱过，很痛过...
这些回忆都刻苦铭心...

有些事情想忘记，却忘记不到..
有些事情想记起，却想不起来..
人类就是这么失败...
就不能像电脑一样，一个按键就将所有东西都删除吗？
为什么要这么痛苦....

我一直用开朗来隐藏自己的寂寞...
我好累...
一直逼自己忘记所有的一切...
回到一个人的生活....
回到原点....
但是眼泪不容许我这么做...
它总是阻止我忘掉他...
它总是在深夜流下，让我想起他的一点一滴...
这些痛苦，令我好难受...

我也想拥有幸福..

我也想拥有快乐，拥有笑容..
看见情侣一对又一对的经过...
突然想起了和你在一起大手牵小手的生活...

看见夫妻抱着小宝宝...
会想起我以前傻傻幻想我们的未来...

为什么越逼自己忘记你，就越辛苦难受...
为什么越想忘记你，就会越痛苦...

看见你信息我，我好开心...
但是我知道我不能再相信爱情..
我已经尝试过心碎的滋味...果然不好受..

可能是自己太过执着...
一直想要你对我更好....
一直要你为我付出...

我现在明白了...
明白自己不应该让你难受..

或许这一切都是我的想法...
但是我这样的决定会是对的...

不要再挽留我了，我受不起再一次的伤害...
其实..我很脆弱...
我不想再一个人静静的在角落流泪了...很难受...

请你放开我的手....

All by myself ...

everything was gone..
just stay the memories company with my heart ...

how to say my feeling now,
erm... missing some things..

all was gone..
without him... i'm nothing...
i wish that he will felt happy to his new life without me...
i wish that he will find another girl love him and better than me...

i will never forget all the memories with him..
cause my heart really love him .. a lot..

i think after this, i will never trust love again..
cause it really hurt and curve ...

my heart already broke..
my life are changed..
my smile is gone..
my confident is shaking ..
my brave is stopping..
but my tears still falling..

PLEASE, DON'T TRUST LOVE....
IT JUST A BEAUTIFUL'S LIE...